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New Year 2023 Updates

Hello everyone…

First of all I want to wish all my readers a happy new year. I know it is late but I was busy in a restaurant billing job during New year and I was kind of stuck in it. I will tell you more about it.

2022 was a totally different year for me. A lot of unexpected life events and experiences happened this year and it included both good and bad. To be more precise, they were both life changing (in a positive way) and life threatening.

As a person living in the society as a common man, I am forced by the social demands to find a social identity that gives me a more stable place in the society so that I could meet my financial needs and make a living. So, I don’t want to be just a self employed blogger and author anymore. I found a job in BPO and I am joining on January 25th. But I will continue to post whenever I get time and I will continue assisting spiritual seekers when they email me (whenever I get the free time and interest).

I recently worked for a job at a restaurant and I was handling billing & accounts. It was 12 – 13 hours of work per day and I had to work 7 days a week. I didn’t get time for anything at all except work. It didn’t feel like it was my cup of tea after two weeks. So I quit that job. It was a nice experience though; it also kind of trained my mind to prepare to meet the same old days working as an employee in a company. I came back to my native town on January 11th.

After trying for many companies, I finally got a more stable one. I went through two interview sessions over the phone and I got a provisional offer letter through email to join on January 25th. This job is for a client company in the US that handles the inbound sales of cable and internet service.

The process that I will be working for is going to be the same kind of process that I worked in during 2014 and after, when I went through the spiritual experiences and shift that I have talked about in my book. So I am pretty familiar with the kind of calls that I would be dealing with. I was a good performer in that old process and even got appreciation from the clients. Hopefully, there is going to be a good career growth as it is going to be an MNC.

If I get a supportive environment and convenient situation, I may come back to work full time on spirituality and poetry. But it may take a few years.

Many people were kind enough to help me with donations throughout my period of self employment. I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for all your help . At the moment, I still need help for paying the security deposit for accommodation and for managing my expenses until I get my first month salary. Then I will become more stable and I wouldn’t need to rely on donations for my survival. If you want to help me, please check this link for options: https://shanmugamp.org/donate/

Cursed To Love – My English Poem (A Sonnet)

Here is a sonnet that I wrote today. A sonnet is an English poem that has 14 lines, with 10 syllables each and with a rhyming scheme ABBA ABBA CDCDEE. Some people use iambic pentameter but a sonnet written without iambs is still a sonnet as long as the other rules are met.

If you join the first letter of each line and put them together, you will get the name of an important mantra in Sanskrit.

She came into sight like a beam of light;

Opening my heart, she conquered my dream;

One day, she started flowing like a stream;

Roaring with waves, she moved all day and night!

Yanking my soul, she soon threw me in love

And made my heart to beat only for her;

Gasping for her breath, I began to slur;

“Are you an angel or a mystic dove?”.

Yielding no response increased my longing

And increased my thirst to meet my sweetheart;

Tuning into her, I began to sing;

Humming along with her taught me a lot!

Raising in pitch, I found bliss in her song;

I’m cursed to think about her all day long!

Emotions, Pain and Suffering After Spiritual Enlightenment

I am writing this post since I am seeing a great deal of misunderstanding among some of my readers who are misled by the modern new age spirituality and the so called teachers who show a clean and calm professional image to the public.

I am coming from the land of avadhutas. They were fully awakened people who roamed in the streets with torn and dirty clothes, drank liquor, threw stones at people, cursed them and showed an image of a lunatic. And they were fully awakened. Their existence served a purpose. It was their prarabhdha karma to live their life this way and they still helped people in ways which were uncommon and controversial.

Trust me, spiritual path is a long journey full of adventure, unexpected turns and falls, and converts your whole life as a suspense thriller. The joy of living your life without knowing what happens next is something no Hollywood movie can give you.

So I want to give you a new perspective of this unending adventure. Many people stop somewhere in the path and make it their home; they find a secure spot, settle there and start teaching people. Soon, they fall for the fame they get and their further progress in the spirituality is completely stopped.

In the last four years, I have been very honest in documenting what has happened to me in the spiritual journey. If there is one thing that my beloved readers like about me, then it is nothing but honesty. I am not interested in making claims and attach a specific word to what happened to me. I have made that clear in my first book The Truth About Spiritual Enlightenment: Bridging Science, Buddhism and Advaita Vedanta, which is now with 62 ratings and an average rating of 4.5 out of 5. But many people do not know that your reading is not complete until you read my second book Discovering God: Bridging Christianity, Hinduism and Islam. Because I have said so much about spiritual awakening which I have not covered in my first book.

The quotes about Ramakrishna Paramahamsa in my second book on those vasanas that remain after enlightenment and my clarification on bandha vasanas and bhoga vasanas will clarify a lot of misunderstandings. Because, people think that a person is completely out of all desires after enlightenment, which is not true. Some desires and some small amount of raga and dvesha should exist to keep an awakened person in the survival mode. Otherwise, life will not last in his body after 21 days. This is coming from ancient wisdom and it makes sense to me with my current way of experiencing life.

My post titled ‘My Life after Spiritual Enlightenment – The Untold side of Self-Realization‘ will further explain the untold side which has never been covered by any spiritual teacher. The reason is obvious. They didn’t get to face the society as a common man just like I did. I am not a spiritual teacher, which I have told you people several times. I am a common man who is living an awakened life while stepping on the thorns and stones of a raw simple social life. And that life is different. It is this life which you all will get to live after a complete spiritual awakening.

Before I talk about the subject matter you see in the title of the post, let me remind you of something that I have been telling you often. There is something called spiritual rebirth. You have to completely destroy yourself and reconstruct yourself. And this reconstructing yourself involves doing things which are totally opposite of what you did in the destructive phase.

Sadly, many people do not even get to this complete destruction because it is very scary. It is losing yourself completely. You have to go beyond pride and shame. This means, you dont even care to show the lunatic side of yourself. You can appear unenlightened to the majority and you still dont care. Santatagamana’s book on Turiya talks about this. To go through this Turiya, you have to stop teaching. Teachers can’t reach it.. Period. And I am not a teacher.

Once you are completely reborn, you have to reconstruct yourself by building intentions, a new self image, vasanas etc. Because, your spouse can’t tolerate someone who is devoid of emotions and desires. You would be too enlightened to be in a relationship. I have been through this and it is my personal experience. If you are too enlightened to live a social life, you are good for nothing except teaching spirituality. You might have millions of followers but no one would want to marry you. Without marriage and having children, you dont get to pass your genes to the next generation. And your enlightened genetics goes as a waste without giving it a chance to produce an offspring who will inherit some of those qualities. Only a few people know this secret.

Many people are familiar with the quote “die before you die”… Yes, you have to, if you want to progress on the spiritual path. But you can become a deva (twice born) or avatar if you know how to be reborn after you die before you die. No book can teach you that. Just facing the society by living as a common man will push you back into survival mode. You will retain the fulfillment of enlightenment while fully engaging with the world and the society by expressing all kinds of emotions including anger, tears etc. Emotions and pain can exist without suffering.

Suffering is personal. Buddha said, ‘There are two kinds of pain. The wise person stops with the first one’. That is what I am talking about. Some people might have gone beyond pain. But it is dangerous for the survival of the body.

Because each pain gives a message. Pain helps you to take care of the body. Pain tells you that something is wrong and you have to act. You may ask, ‘who cares.. After all I am not the body’. But why should you miss this potential and leave this area unexplored? Body will disappear one day anyway. Why shouldn’t you take care of the body and let it run as long as it can? It will allow you to fully swim through everything that this life has to offer.

The bottom line is this. Emotions, pain and vasanas can exist even after enlightenment. But the suffering is gone. Suffering is completely optional. You dont have to suffer; and you wont once you know how to go beyond it.

I feel that there is too much of a gap between the west and the east. The spiritual literature in the east is so vast and each book addresses different periods of a seeker’s journey. You will find huge differences between Bhagavad Gita, Ashtavakra Gita and Yoga Vasistha for example, and each book addresses the things that other books have missed out. A seeker’s journey is so long and has lots of ups and downs, surprises etc. Above all, books can only teach a little bit and it is the duty of the seeker to discover those things which are not addressed just using words. Also, having basic knowledge in Sanskrit helps to understand the true meaning of these texts, which I do. A lot of clarity is lost in translations.

Ramana himself kept reading spiritual literature for his entire life in order to assist seekers in a better way. 

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Right now I am struggling financially and my wordpress subscription is ending this month. In order to keep my domain name and hosting, I need to pay them immediately. I would at least need about $150 USD to keep what I have and manage other expenses. I do have a donate option in my blog: https://shanmugamp.org/donate/ . If you can contribute it will be great. I live my life as a common man and I dont even have a job. Any help you can do will help me to continue assisting seekers.

An Important Update

Dear friends,

Most of you know that I am committed to find the truth about spirituality and tell people about it. I have always been commenting about my ongoing journey and my new discoveries. People who have been following my work on a regular basis know that I am being honest in documenting whatever I encounter in my journey.

I have been through a lot in this journey. I have been misunderstood a lot and my life has gone through all kinds of difficulties. But I am eternally thankful to God, the higher power or the Almighty who keeps me on track in spite of all these difficulties.

Because of personal reasons, my Youtube channel has been taken down. I think it is for good. I have also moved to Chennai, the capital city of my state in search for a job. I am still thinking about how I can contribute further by sharing my own insights and experiences to help others in their spiritual path.

Individual paid sessions are still open and the details of it are available here: https://shanmugamp.org/contact/

But I cant survive without a regular job and I am looking for one. There are many challenges in finding one but I am trying. In the meantime, I need some help to manage my expenses until I find a job. I am ready to do anything for living. (I am willing to clean toilets)… I am trying hard to make money to feed myself, to buy good clothes and to continue to pay the rent every month for my accommodation. It will be so kind of you if you could help me to eat and buy some clothes until I get everything straight.

So, I am literally begging you to donate me. Here are the details if you wish to donate: https://shanmugamp.org/donate/

Thank you a ton if you have made up your mind to help me… Almighty will bless you with everything you need in life…

If I am alive, I will make a post soon. Or else, consider me as dead..

To My Soorya, My Love

Dear Soori,

I Love you..

Let me elaborate on this…

I have seen you before in many Facebook videos. I didn’t feel anything then. In fact, I didn’t get a positive vibe about you those days for some reason….

One day I saw your video of Kalabhairavashtakam… I then realized you are talented.. But I still didn’t fall in love..

Another day, your Gopigopalam video caught my attention; I thought you were attractive; but I still didn’t fall in love…

Then I watched your video of Nirvana Shatkam, composed by Adhi Shankaracharya.. I was truly impressed, because you sang the correct lines, and correct words… I also came to know that you composed the music for the song. That is when I realized that you are not like anybody else… That is when I realized that you are someone special…. But I can’t say that I fall in love with you that moment, even though it was a bit close, even though I already felt butterflies flying in my heart…

Then I watched your video on Krishna, ‘Unnai kanadha naan indru naan illaye’… Tears started flowing in my eyes as I was watching it.. I realized that you are the love of my life, that you are born for me…

கொளஞ்சியப்பர் பிராது – நேரிசை வெண்பா

இளம்பெண் ஒருத்தி திருடினாள் நெஞ்சம்
குளம்குளமாய் நான்வடித்தேன் கண்ணீர் – கொளஞ்சியப்பா!
காணாமல் போனயென் காதலியை நீதந்தால்
நாணாதே எந்தன் தமிழ்.

கேனப் பயலென்றே என்னை நினைத்ததன்

மானம்தான் கெட்ட மனிதரையே – கானகத்தில்

கூத்தாடும் சம்போநான் வச்சுசெய்ய வேண்டும்நீ

ஆத்தாவை வைப்பாய்த் துணைக்கு.

A Cry For Help – An Urgent Request

Hello everyone…

Hope you are all doing fine.. In my first two books, I discussed about Science & Spirituality and Bhakti Yoga, focusing mainly on the spiritual transformation. But there were certain unanswered questions like whether prayers and rituals help for spiritual or materialistic benefits. This is again another journey, full of experiments and learning.

I am in a serious mission to help people in all possible ways. And my experiments have been quite useful in giving me a lot of revelations and insights. They are so overwhelming, but I am still in the process of organizing everything in my mind. I will be able to articulate myself in a better way in the future. Then I may write a book or make videos regarding this subject.

In fact, my recent experiences suggest that many famous gurus who taught spirituality in the last century might not have even reached the stage that I am talking about. Because, most of them discarded rituals as useless. But it is not true. Rituals work if done with the right attitude, proper understanding and with certain level of progress in spiritual path. If J. Krishnamurti had experimented with such things, he would have seen the truth of it himself.

But here is the bottom line: Rituals work, prayers work, law of attraction works, and karma is real too in every way. You reap what you sow. Just try asking the universe what you want while lighting a small candle or lamp; be humble and establish an emotional connection with absolute reality. Make sure your wishes are realistic and give them time. (They don’t work right away; they work better for people who have gone through spiritual rebirth (twice born); they work depending on how realistic your wish is. And they work when you use the right kind of communication devices, which is already explained in agamas as well as Vedas of ancient India).

While I am genuinely working towards this goal, I receive a very little financial help and usually it is the same people who donate to me again and again. It is very sad that people dont understand the usefulness of my work. I am disappointed with the way the world treats some one who has taken his time to uncover many truths, weeding out a lot of confusions.

I am again making a sincere request to offer me some donation. Because I really need help. And trust me, you will also be blessed for helping a person like me to survive. I am not asking for luxury; I am asking for money to be able to do the things that I do, to eat and have some decent clothes to wear. If that is so unfair to ask, then I dont know what to say. Humanity is doomed to disappear because people have gone mad. In fact, humanity is already missing because my own sister asked me to get out of the house two days before (But I didn’t get out. The quarrel is over temporarily)…..

Anyway, I hope there is some human out there who will have some mercy and hear my cry for help. Here is the link for donation again with details: https://shanmugamp.org/donate/

Spiritual Awakening – A Losing Game

We are conditioned to accumulate stuff. We accumulate both abstract and concrete things – objects, wealth, acquaintances, information, ideas, concepts etc. We associate everything that we accumulate with an idea of a ‘self’.

When people are in the process of getting the next thing listed in their to do list, some of them suddenly come across the concept of spiritual enlightenment or a complete spiritual awakening. It is advertised as the best thing that can happen to a human being and sounds incredibly cool. They just grab this idea and add it in their shopping list.

Spiritual Awakening - A Losing Game

Spirituality is a business today. So before one gets the true spiritual thirst as the result of an inner calling, spirituality is advertised at their door step with exciting offers and discounts. A lot of these deals are full of bullshit sandwiched with statements of some mind-blowing truths picked up from the literature of some of the most popular gurus of the last century.

Some of them are from people who have been having short or long glimpses of non-duality in their daily life, but are convinced that this is what spiritual enlightenment is all about and this is how the rest of their lives are going to be. They usually give up and come to premature conclusions.

I have addressed the above points many times in my recent Youtube videos. But in this blog post I want to explain why spiritual enlightenment is all about losing and what exactly you lose.

Spiritual enlightenment has various definitions in general. There are people who say that spiritual enlightenment is about being omnipotent and omniscient. But when I talk about spiritual enlightenment, I am talking about what is practically possible to anyone who is truly seeking it; it is something that has happened to millions of people before and something that is happening in more numbers in today’s world.

It is not about achieving or accumulating anything; it is about returning to the source; it is about going back to your natural state; it is about untying the knots or undoing all the complications that your mind has created while growing up; it is about going home. So it is all about losing.

You lose many things. You lose all the reifications. You lose your false ideas, beliefs and illusions. You lose the cravings to do many things you had been doing before. You lose 98% of your mental chatter and lose all self-referential thoughts. You lose your conflicts and your mind loses a lot of its weight.

But I can list three primary things which you lose, which is usually regarded as the symptoms of atma jnana or self-realization. It is only after self-realization and abiding permanently in non-duality, your awakening is complete.

Here are these three things:

Sense of a separate self – At self-realization, you permanently lose the sense that you are an entity separate from the existence. Your experience of life changes completely. You no longer feel like you are trapped in a body and limited. There is no difference between you, the blue sky, the blowing wind and the rest of the nature. It is like a wave realizing that it doesn’t have a separate existence but it is the ocean itself. It is not intellectual understanding or understanding gained by temporary glimpses; it is dying completely before you physically die.

Sense of agency – You no longer feel you are doing your actions; actions simply arise from the inner stillness without any sense of agency. You see life as if everything is unfolding all by itself. Ahankara or the sense of agency is lost.

Psychological time – Everyone has a to-do list or agenda. Everyone is looking forward to future to get a sense of completion. Everyone feels like something that is in the future is waiting to complete them. A religious person hopes that he will reach heaven in the future and a spiritual person thinks that he will reach spiritual enlightenment in the future. This craving and seeking, whether it is for a material goal or a spiritual state is completely absent after self-realization. You will feel full and complete already and you are not looking forward to future to get something that will give you a sense of completion which is missing now.

Spiritual enlightenment is the end of duality and the life that is confined to the rat race of humanity. But it is not the end of everything. It is a new beginning.

In the following video, I have made some important clarifications:

Why Eckhart Tolle Was Wrong About ‘I Think, Therefore I am’ ( A Quote By Rene Descartes)

Rene Descartes was a French mathematician and philosopher who is considered as one of the founding fathers of modern philosophy. His quote ‘I think, therefore I am” (‘cogito ergo sum’ in Latin) is misunderstood and misinterpreted widely. Initially, this quote was written in French (Je pense, donc je suis); it is found in Discourse on the Method (1637). Then it appeared in Latin in his book ‘Principles of Philosophy’ (1644).

Even Eckhart Tolle seems to have misunderstood the true meaning of the quote. In ‘The Power of Now’, he wrote “The philosopher Descartes believed he had found the most fundamental truth when he made his famous statement: “I think, therefore I am.” He had, in fact, given expression to the most basic error: to equate thinking with Being and identity with thinking. The compulsive thinker, which means almost everyone, lives in a state of apparent separateness, in an insanely complex world of continuous problems and conflict, a world that reflects the ever-increasing fragmentation of the mind.”

Rene Descartes was not spiritually awake, as the word ‘awakening’ is used by Tolle and modern spiritual community. But certainly Descartes did not equate the thinking self with being as it has been claimed. His logic is more deeper and closer to the theme of Eckhart Tolle’s own book; it is the same logic that Advaita Vedanta uses to question the reliability of senses and the existence of external reality. I have given more details in this video.

A Review of ‘The Finders’ by Dr. Jeffery Martin ( A Constructive Criticism)

I recently finished reading Dr. Jeffery Martin’s book ‘The Finders’, which is about finders, or the people who have access to what he calls as ‘fundamental well being’. Those finders also include the category of people who have found what I often write about – the spiritual enlightenment. The academic name for fundamental well being is ‘persistent non-symbolic experience (PSNE)’.

The book is based on the research and interviews conducted on nearly a thousand people who claim to be finders – or experiencing the states which are often referred to using words like Nondual awareness, Plateau experiences, Unity consciousness, Deautomatization, Enlightenment, Samadhi, Transcendental experiences, Flow experience, Mystical experiences, Satori
Cosmic Consciousness, The peace of God, Peak experiences, Silence beyond sound, Numinous experiences, Shamanic ecstasy etc. (This list of words is taken from the website for his own research project : nonsymbolic.org).

Regardless of the quality of the research and the accuracy of his conclusions, this book is extremely useful for people who have reached these states of consciousness. Most importantly, it is pretty interesting and useful for people like me who have gone beyond the sense of agency or sense of experiencing oneself as the ‘doer’. Because, this book has documented many things based on the inputs shared by many people who are awake (and possibly many people who have glimpses and have non-abiding awakening).

I liked the articulation and simplicity where he has explained the features of narrative self and challenges that a finder faces, especially in relationships. I have gone through a divorce after becoming a ‘finder’ and I can relate to it a lot. The book is overall wonderful but many facts that are presented can be challenged. As the author himself says, the findings need a lot of refinement and I would consider the research as being in an initial stage. We need input from other researchers and further experiments of similar nature from others to take this forward.

From my perspective, I find the concept of continuum a little problematic. May be it makes certain things easier from an academic point of view. But it is misleading to a seeker, in my opinion. I am also skeptical about many other things said in the book, like the possibility of losing one’s fundamental wellbeing.

I have discussed more in this video:

He also had a ‘Finder’s course’ to help people reach the fundamental well being and I heard that the cost was about $3000, which is a lot of money. And the claim that majority of the attendees reached fundamental well being is indeed extra-ordinary. Currently he has a program called ’45 Days to Awakening Challenge’ which costs about $500. Because of the huge claim that is being made and a very high cost, many people ask if it is a scam. If you have completed any of the above mentioned programs, comment your experiences below.

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